Rest in peace, budah.

Today has been a really heartbreaking day for me. We had to put down my cat, Edward.
I know because it's a cat it seems like I shouldn't be all that upset, but, to be quite honest- It's like loosing a close freind or family member. I was so attached to this cat it's not even funny.
I think that the most difficult and sad part is that he wasen't even two. It's so unfair. I honestly don't even know how to handle this at the moment. If you have me added on Notemine then you've seen a lot of my recent thoughts dealing with this - I apologize for how many of them there are, but, this is truly tearing me up inside. :( I don't know how to hadle this. It's the fourth pet that I have lost in the past five years. I don't get why this keeps happening. Am I cursed? Like, honestly. gao... I don't know how someone can go through this. I don't know how I have managed to stay as sane as I am. I feel like I should be way past my breaking point, but I'm not. I guess that's a good though, though. Well that's if for now I guess. I think that I am going to make a video dedicated to him tomorrow so I'll post that once I make it, if I do. Thank you to those of you who take the time to read this.


RIP my little mosnter. I know you're in a better place now.<33