Alright- here goes my (sort of) rant SCKATHERS/Ex-SCKATHERS-
Let me just get my part about the newbies out of the way first;
I don't have anything against any of the newbies at all, BUT, I just really think that it's best not to use the name SCKATHERS anymore when it comes to all of them because they are going to get a lot of shit for crap that we have done in the past and not understand why. SCKATHERS haven't exactly been known to be friendly to everyone, aha. Obviously, I have no say in what is done but that is just my opinion.
You all know that I left and you all know my reasons so no need to go into any of that, I'll just move on to all the drama that has happened:
Yes, I have had my part in it and I know that I have probably made myself sound like a hypocrite, and am about to again, but really it's just got to stop. There is such a strain on the forums as a whole from it. Like I said , I know I sound like a hypocrite but I needed to say that. I do vow to not participate in any of it in the future. I will only stop it if it's on the forums.
okay, this isn't as long as I anticipated and is pointless but whatever. Take it or leave it , aha. xD
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
This time around.
Well I know I haven't blogged in a really long time so I am going to update about a few things that have been going on since the last time I did and then I also have some other stuff I need to get out my opinions on (SCKATHER/Ex-SCAKTHERish stuff) that I shall post another blog about when I am done with this one.
I'll start off with a few smaller things first:
I am newly addicted to twitter so if you have one and are not following me yet DO IT.
http://twitter.com/xsodapopp
:D
I mentioned my car in my blog post the first day that I got it and I just have to say: I freaking love that thing! <3
:]]
Okay, so, on to the other more serious (kind of) stuff.... well I started college;I think that is the biggest change so far. It's been interesting... I mean, I'm not at a university so it's not that intense. I lucked out with some pretty good professors too so it's been alright. I think it's just still really weird to me that I am actually an adult now and that I really need to start acting as such more often. Along with that I have just been really thinking about everything differently lately. After some crap I pulled with some internet drama I just realized that I really need to just start acting more my age and learn to just shrug things off because really focusing on negative things helps nothing.
Other than school the only thing that has really been going on is that I have been working more which has been kinda nice 'cause I've been able to put some more money in savings and such. Even that has changed a lot though. Some people have quit and some new people have started (one being a good friend of mine, Joseph, which has been pretty rad.)
I think one of my biggest problems right now is that I am beginning to realize that I can't stop change from happening and that I have no control over what changes really and that scares the HELL out of me. I mean, I knew that a lot of change was coming as I started working and began school but I don't know. I think that will just always be my biggest issue. I think that is really my only fear aside from fear itself.
wow, well I am really boring now so I am going to stop this post for now and move on to the next one.
I'll start off with a few smaller things first:
I am newly addicted to twitter so if you have one and are not following me yet DO IT.
http://twitter.com/xsodapopp
:D
I mentioned my car in my blog post the first day that I got it and I just have to say: I freaking love that thing! <3
:]]
Okay, so, on to the other more serious (kind of) stuff.... well I started college;I think that is the biggest change so far. It's been interesting... I mean, I'm not at a university so it's not that intense. I lucked out with some pretty good professors too so it's been alright. I think it's just still really weird to me that I am actually an adult now and that I really need to start acting as such more often. Along with that I have just been really thinking about everything differently lately. After some crap I pulled with some internet drama I just realized that I really need to just start acting more my age and learn to just shrug things off because really focusing on negative things helps nothing.
Other than school the only thing that has really been going on is that I have been working more which has been kinda nice 'cause I've been able to put some more money in savings and such. Even that has changed a lot though. Some people have quit and some new people have started (one being a good friend of mine, Joseph, which has been pretty rad.)
I think one of my biggest problems right now is that I am beginning to realize that I can't stop change from happening and that I have no control over what changes really and that scares the HELL out of me. I mean, I knew that a lot of change was coming as I started working and began school but I don't know. I think that will just always be my biggest issue. I think that is really my only fear aside from fear itself.
wow, well I am really boring now so I am going to stop this post for now and move on to the next one.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Rest in peace, budah.
Today has been a really heartbreaking day for me. We had to put down my cat, Edward.
I know because it's a cat it seems like I shouldn't be all that upset, but, to be quite honest- It's like loosing a close freind or family member. I was so attached to this cat it's not even funny.
I think that the most difficult and sad part is that he wasen't even two. It's so unfair. I honestly don't even know how to handle this at the moment. If you have me added on Notemine then you've seen a lot of my recent thoughts dealing with this - I apologize for how many of them there are, but, this is truly tearing me up inside. :( I don't know how to hadle this. It's the fourth pet that I have lost in the past five years. I don't get why this keeps happening. Am I cursed? Like, honestly. gao... I don't know how someone can go through this. I don't know how I have managed to stay as sane as I am. I feel like I should be way past my breaking point, but I'm not. I guess that's a good though, though. Well that's if for now I guess. I think that I am going to make a video dedicated to him tomorrow so I'll post that once I make it, if I do. Thank you to those of you who take the time to read this.
RIP my little mosnter. I know you're in a better place now.<33
I know because it's a cat it seems like I shouldn't be all that upset, but, to be quite honest- It's like loosing a close freind or family member. I was so attached to this cat it's not even funny.
I think that the most difficult and sad part is that he wasen't even two. It's so unfair. I honestly don't even know how to handle this at the moment. If you have me added on Notemine then you've seen a lot of my recent thoughts dealing with this - I apologize for how many of them there are, but, this is truly tearing me up inside. :( I don't know how to hadle this. It's the fourth pet that I have lost in the past five years. I don't get why this keeps happening. Am I cursed? Like, honestly. gao... I don't know how someone can go through this. I don't know how I have managed to stay as sane as I am. I feel like I should be way past my breaking point, but I'm not. I guess that's a good though, though. Well that's if for now I guess. I think that I am going to make a video dedicated to him tomorrow so I'll post that once I make it, if I do. Thank you to those of you who take the time to read this.
RIP my little mosnter. I know you're in a better place now.<33
Monday, January 12, 2009
here it goes
well, you all know what's been going on (for the most part) so theres no need to go into all of that.
I just wanted to just say a few things, nothing major, but:
I think that we all really need to just being ourselves to reality. We're friends, yes, but internet friends. There is a difference. We need to not be taking this all to heart. Really.
Yes, we all spend a lot of time on the internet, and it might not be that great of a thing, but we have to take responsiblity for the fact that WE are the ones that let things affect us the way they do- even if we don't think we do. Everyone has to have a balance. I am online just as much as most of you but I still have as much of a social life as I want and work (and will be starting college soon). You just have to find your balance. you can't place your blame on anyone but yourself. I honestly do not even see any of this as a big deal at all. I don't know why so many so. It's really not. At all.
No, I'm not worked up as it may sound like I am. I'm not pissed off or anything. I'm just making these statements. I'm being blunt for once.
-shrug- I don't know. Maybe I'm the only one who feels this way. Maybe I sound like a bitch.
but this is what I think. Like it or not. Like I said on the twilighters boards: if you want to keep in touch with me just let me know. I do like talking to all of you.
I just wanted to just say a few things, nothing major, but:
I think that we all really need to just being ourselves to reality. We're friends, yes, but internet friends. There is a difference. We need to not be taking this all to heart. Really.
Yes, we all spend a lot of time on the internet, and it might not be that great of a thing, but we have to take responsiblity for the fact that WE are the ones that let things affect us the way they do- even if we don't think we do. Everyone has to have a balance. I am online just as much as most of you but I still have as much of a social life as I want and work (and will be starting college soon). You just have to find your balance. you can't place your blame on anyone but yourself. I honestly do not even see any of this as a big deal at all. I don't know why so many so. It's really not. At all.
No, I'm not worked up as it may sound like I am. I'm not pissed off or anything. I'm just making these statements. I'm being blunt for once.
-shrug- I don't know. Maybe I'm the only one who feels this way. Maybe I sound like a bitch.
but this is what I think. Like it or not. Like I said on the twilighters boards: if you want to keep in touch with me just let me know. I do like talking to all of you.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
new car , new year and realxation.
wow, it has been such a crazy start to 2009 for me! I didn't do much on new years eve (just went to see twilight - again- with a friend.) and then I worked on new years day. Oh, but then theres the second- I got a car from my mom! HOLY CROW! It's a used ford focus. It's not perfect and it's not the most sleek car but it's mine; and I love it! I so wasent even expecting it either. My mom just came home with it and was like "it's yours." Insanity!! Then the past few days I've just been relaxing and thinking a lot. I'm still pretty nervous about a lot of things that will be coming up but I think that if I just suck it up and go with the flow that I will be okay in the end. I have to stop holding myself back from just living. Okay, I'll stop rambling on now ahaha. thanks for reading :]
-Ashley
-Ashley
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